Waking October 5, 2003
It's our habit to wake up quite early every morning, like 6 AM. I work on my computer and Ellie fixes me coffee. On this particular morning we took some photos with our new camera.
| Whenever I look at Ellie I see her as
she was in our first years together, like in the picture on the right from December of
1978. She looks very much like our daughter Mushmara in this picture. She has the kind of
beauty that passes on through the generations. But that was more than 25 years ago. She had the most beautiful smile once. |
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Well, she still does, even today. But back then she had teeth. Simple dentistry is beyond our means for some ungodly reason. So our teeth just rot away. All of Ellie's uppers are gone now. Most of mine too. Her facial hair is something of a heartache... Even at 16 years old, when I first met her, she had a faint mustache like some European women do.
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And I loved it. But as the years passed there was more and more of it. Until it is the way it is today, where she has to either use Nair regularly or shave, or she would actually have a beard. Doesn't seem very kind that a beautiful woman like Ellie should have to have a beard. |
Seems like a very mean trick of fate to me. One of the things Ellie has had to learn to endure, an especially irksome thing to add to all the other hardships. So sometimes she gets very angry. And who could blame her? But she is still the same Ellie I have always known in the center of her being. Kind and generous. She loves little animals and they love her. She rubs my back or my feet whenever they hurt, any time of the day or night. When she is sound asleep she will wake up and rub my back. What a blessing she has been to my life!
If it was only up to me I wouldn't care about the facial hair. But in our modern world most people don't understand at all. I don't want to see her get her feelings hurt. She seems to have accepted it. Her attitude towards it seems to be that if some force in the universe has the power to cause this embarrassment to happen to her, then so be it. I see it metaphysically myself. Ellie doesn't get rid of her facial hair every day. Sometimes I have to plead with her to do it. But some of our friends think the chemicals in Nair are very unhealthy and they urge us to just leave it be. Anyway, shaving seems only to make it worse. There is the process of electrolysis. But it's very expensive. Painful too. So I guess we just have to accept things as they are. Anyway, it's what is in a person's heart that really matters. What's in a person's heart...
